If you’ve been following me for a while you have probably read some of my other posts about my mental health issues since I try to be very open about it. I don’t think that mental health is something we talk about enough as a society and we really should. I believe that by getting it out in the open we could view it as less taboo and could get those who need help, help. However, moving on….recently I have been MIA to my blog, social media, etc. and that is because I have been battling deeper depression than normal along with getting anxiety attacks far too often. Just trying to keep up with everything was exhausting so I took about two weeks off. Now I am back!!!
Depression is a weird thing because someone can show absolutely no signs of it and still have a very bad case of it. In my case I feel like I shown a lot of signs but living a few cities away from my family creates an environment where no one really knows when I am acting different. When I get deeply depressed I want to stay in bed and when I do get up I have no drive to do anything I am suppose to do or want to do, I really just sit on the couch. In my mind I know I should be eating good and going to the gym in order to improve my mood but I just can’t get myself to do that. These actions caused me to get behind in Uni, my job, and all of my hobbies such as this and I am not proud of that but I understand why it happened.
I finally realized that I really do need help, I can’t just get over this on my own. However, I have no time for in person therapy and that is when I found I Prevail, it is essentially a therapy website. I am in no way affiliated with them and they have no idea who I am or that I am making this post but I wanted to mention the site. So far it has felt like it is helping and I hope it continues to help. It is a therapy site that really helps you understand what is going on and why it is before breaking into working to fix it, which I find very helpful.
I also realized that a lot of my depression was stemming from where I am at in life. I am doing a job I don’t want to be, in school for something I don’t want to do, and living a life I just really don’t enjoy or love. Along with this I realized that I have to go for what I do want otherwise there is no way it could ever become a reality.
These are rules I have to remind myself of because I am someone who hopes I can become something or make a career out of something that I am not trying at…and that is just ridiculous. I think one key habit into getting myself out of depression is to keep myself busy with things I love. To start working towards what I want in life and just keep going because then I am actually giving everything a shot. And I think this could be very helpful advice to others going through depression or other life struggles as well.
Alright well my depression discussion and semi motivation speech is done so now lets move on to the more technical stuff. For a while there I was posting daily but I think that with everything else I am trying to do that will be too much to put out really wonderful content. So I am going to aim for one blog post every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday by 2pm. So stay tuned for all of those!!
I am also going to start doing more than just makeup because I love fashion, hair, interior design, and business so I am going to try and incorporate all of those into my blog as well, I hope you will still enjoy. I hope this post wasn’t too terribly boring for you and I hope you stick around to see where my journey goes. Thanks for the read!